Come What May

Awhile ago, I found myself in a conversation with someone I haven't conversed with much in awhile. This person is a very interesting guy, who I had been "talking" to for awhile on the phone. He's younger than me, and more naive than me. Less experienced in the world, but vastly intellectual, and a very logical person.

We stopped talking, basically because the decision was made that, it could never work between us. Circumstances aren't very promoting. So, it was deemed best to nip it in the butt before emotions got involved, and so forth and so on.

This conversation started out with that situation and derived from there. And, by the time it was over, I was left wondering exactly when and where we as people draw these lines.

The ones that we make for ourselves and our situations, and feel forced to place ourselves on one side or the other.



There is a fine line indeed, between eliminating something from your life that seems impossible, and throwing away something that could be possible.

It's hard to decide when you're chasing after a pipe dream that can never happen, or you're running from something because you're afraid that it might.



We do this, all the time. Every week. Every hour.

We place goals and dreams in our hearst and minds. We build ourselves up in hopes of reaching them, and we just as quickly write them off.



How often do we step back to actually notice the things we deny ourselves of, because of these goals and dreams.

Maybe you want a family, so you ignore opportunities at work.

Maybe you want to build a career, so you find that you can't fit in a blind date.



It happens so regularly.



And I personally wonder when to possibilities become so impossible, and when does the impossible become a possibility?

When do you know?

How far is too far? How much is enough?



The restrictions and limitations we put on ourselves, amazes me.

Thinking we can't handle this, or we can't juggle that.



Why bother with this, when we've got that going on over there.

Sometimes I think it would do all of us some serious good to take a step back, and instead of looking at what we're heading for....consider what we're leaving behind.



I have made so many wrong decisions. I've jumped to conclusions, and made choices that weren't clearly thought through. Sometimes those choices were for the best.

Sometimes they were not.

I wonder if given the chance to take a different route, if I would.



I wonder if I was able to draw a line a second time, if I'd always place myself on the same side.



I'm an irrational thinker. I'm not very practical, or logical.

I think of these things, but rarely do i side with them.



I find myself more of a dreamer.



I often wish I weren't this way. I think sometimes, that it would be best if I made decisions more regularly with an alliance of logic, and intellect. One with facts, and probability.

Instead I opt for emotion, and belief. Faith, and unpredicability.



My greatest fear is not, not getting what I want for myself. It's getting what I want for myself, and realizing that maybe that's not the complete answer. What will I search for then?



When faced with the decisions that we all face in life, I find myself wondering less about what's ahead of me, and more about what's behind.

Not what will change, but what won't.



Life is often about sacrifice. A very small percentage of people get what they want. At least not completely. You often hafta make decisions that lead you on a new path. Creating a whole new set-list of decisions requiring your alteration. Every door opens new ones.



I think the world in general would be a happier place if we didn't try to plan so much. In the planning process we lose the spark of spontanaiety (Spell check!) We forget that sometimes, the greatest things we can experience come in times we least expect, or from places we wouldn't normally desire. Life is crazy like that.

I encourage everyone to keep their minds open to the unexpected.



We draw the lines in our own lives. We make the rules for ourselves. Which means, we can make the decision to stop drawing lines forselves to abide by. And, I think by doing that we'd open up our lives to some of the greatest possibilities.

And, often times, the worst mistakes.
Still yet... I think that the one, makes up for the other.